Robbie Williams - Feel

Come and hold my hand
I wanna contact the living
Not sure I understand
This rope I've been given
I sit and talk to God
And he just laughs at my plans
My head speaks a language
I don't understand

I just wanna feel
Real love fill the home that I live in
Cos I got too much life
Running thru my veins
Going to waste
I don't wanna die
But I ain't keen on living either
Before I fall in love
I'm preparing to leave her

Scare myself to dead
That's why I keep on running
Before I've arrived
I can see myself coming
I just wanna feel
Real love fill the home that I live in
Cos I got too much life
Running thru my veins
Going to waste
And I need to feel
Real love and the love ever after
I can not get enough

I just wanna feel
Real love fill the home that I live in
I got too much love
Running thru my veins
To go to waste

I just wanna feel
Real love and the love ever after
There's a hole in my soul
You can see it in my face
It's a real big place

Come and hold my hand
I wanna contact the living
Not sure I understand
This rope I've been given
Not sure I understand
Not sure I understand
Not sure I understand
Not sure I understand

posted by Down the rabbit hole we go. at Friday, December 20, 2002

Rage Of A Machine

Guess what I'm mood swinging now.... like a pendulum... from left to right.....and back again. For one moment i feel like a caged animal waiting to be released...animalistic...brutal...with a hunter's instinct.... the rage and fury built up and reserved for today to be unleashed on OFS is overloading the circuitry..tried to release some of it at weights in the evening but failed...shall go and do weights tomorrow with alvin....my arms yearn for the ache of fatigue...my mind for the satisfaction of doing 20kg bicep curls or 100kg bench presses...pushing on to the goal of being part of a team that strikes fear in everyone's heart....a team whose rampage none can resist...an onslaught none can halt....the fear i see in the back of the opposition's mind makes me feel one of a kind......

for another moment, i feel lost and lonely...lacking in some way or another.... maybe its because of the lack of 7km runs this week or the boring life i realize I have been leading after monday's great experience.... i still wonder if i should ask her out again....wonder if its the right thing to do...or maybe i should just go back to the simple way of life...that's when it hits me: if i'm thinking about this doesn't that already make life complicated? life's never simple that's my final conclusion......To ask or not to ask that is the question...but what then is the answer ? there is much to ponder about and yet the rage of my alter ego blinds me ... sometimes i feel like i'm living the lives of 2 people at the same time....one filled with blinding rage and obsession with a goal...another with undying love: a hopeless romantic... which am i ? who am i ? what choice should i make now ? ponder......................wonder....................i will ask n train like mad still while coach is back in NZ for the holiday break.

BTW just did this emode test...its true...this is me.

Mmm ... licorice! Strong and edgy, you're the flavor of black jellybeans and Good 'n' Plentys. Some people absolutely love you (in fact, they might even find you addictive), but you're definitely not for everyone. But that's okay with you — you'd rather pick and choose your companions. When you have time for friends at all, that is. Powerful and very potent, you're goal-oriented and ambitious — you don't let much stand in your way. There's nothing sweet or sugary about you; you're a serious taste that's best suited for the truly focused. Lingering, enigmatic, and a little hard to pin down, you're a truly tantalizing treat.





posted by Down the rabbit hole we go. at Wednesday, December 18, 2002

John Rzeznik - I'm Still Here (Jim's Theme)
I am a question to the world
Not an answer to be heard
Or a moment that's held in your arms

And what do you think you'd ever say
I won't listen anyway
You don't know me
And I'll never be what you want
Me to be

And what
Do you think you'd understand
I'm boy, no, I'm a man
You can't take me
And throw me away

And how
Can you learn what's never shown
Yeah, you stand here on your own
They don't know me
'Cause I'm not here

[Chorus]
And I want a moment to be real
Want to touch things I don't feel
Wanna hold on and feel I belong

And how can the world want me to change
They're the ones that stay the same
They don't know me
'Cause I'm not here

And you see the things they never see
All you wanted - I could be
Now you know me
And I'm not afraid

And I want to tell you who I am
Can you help me be a man
They can't break me
As long as I know who I am

[Chorus]

And how can the world want me to change
They're the ones that stay the same
They can't see me
But I'm still here

They can't tell me who to be
'Cause I'm not what they see
Yeah, the world is still sleepin' while I keep on dreaming for me
And their words are just whispers and lies that I'll never believe

[Chorus]

And how can you say I'll never change
They're the ones that stay the same
I'm the one now
'Cause I'm still here

I'm the one
'Cause I'm still here
I'm still here
I'm still here
I'm still here

Fun ? Definitely Romance ? I have no idea...
Today might rank as one of the best days of the holidays.....well I went out with her...met at 1.45pm+ ...we were both famished so we had lunch at marche..
after that we went to look at x'mas cards...bought a few but i doubt it'll be enough ... went to cineleisure to play arcade...haha can't believe i lost at daytona but
yar guys have to let girls win right ? heh *big excuse* ... went to heeren to take a look at the alvins crush she wanted to see if their crush was that chio but she wasn't there
oh well there's always next time...1645pm watched santa clause 2 it was a real sweet n cute christmas movie and we both enjoyed it... went to esplanade for a walk before going home.. yep...

sometimes its not the place that you're at or the things you're doing but the person you're doing it with that counts.. and i guess today is just one of those days
i feel very relaxed and at ease when I'm with her...very different from the awkward feeling i get when i'm with other girls in the past ... I wonder if its the start of something beautiful or just a passing moment of happiness... ah well... I'm just going to take things easy n see if she's really the one i'm searching for....its all too easy to say you're in love with someone all it takes is just some saliva and some muscle movement... but to know that you truely mean it requires much more time thought and effort....





posted by Down the rabbit hole we go. at Monday, December 16, 2002

Smitten
Its been a rather mixed weekend rather...so i'll just drop the boring parts and get on to the exciting stuff....
well the highlight of the weekend has to be the bet i made with alvin tan. I'll ask her out if he tries his best to befriend the mambo sales girl ( check previous entry if you're lost! ) seriously i'm glad it happened...kinda encouraged me to ask her out when I was still playing with the idea of doing just that... so now I have a date on monday!
hahaz hope it turns out fine tho... i have a tentative plan but... we'll just see what happens !... can't believe i'm in such a jubilant mood... yay ! hope life has taken a turn for e better =)

posted by Down the rabbit hole we go. at Sunday, December 15, 2002