stupid motherfucker took me from behind and now i've got a sprained ankle. what a fine way to start the holidays. despite that i limped all the way to PS with bingliang and josiah to catch a movie. chia had to meet his ri friends so josiah and i watched Pirates on our own. pretty cool show. if i lived in those times i think i would have run away to become a pirate too. for freedom. for adventure. promos are just round the corner i gotta pick up the tempo..hopefully good results are enough to make up for a fair conduct at various times of the day the image and thought of you just floods my mind we hardly talk but i think of you i wonder why maybe its just cause i want to get to know you better.

posted by Down the rabbit hole we go. at Saturday, September 06, 2003

he's a problem child. they never understood him they tried on the various stereotypes on him they compared him to others they bitched about what people outside said so he's a fucking kid with a problem. no wait he is the problem a problem that's just getting bigger and bigger as the years go by. oh and now they think this so called problem has grown beyond their control? no drugs no smoke and they think he's a problem. i wonder if they have ever seen a real problem. it never began with him they created him its a big cauldron and they just threw in the ingredients to create this volatile mixture they deem a problem. "My whole life I was made to believe I was sick when I wasn't 'til I grew up, now I blew up." call him a problem child do whatever you want he doesn't give a shit. there's something different about him something neither of you have. he's livewire burning hot with potential just without all the tools to harness it. he knows what he wants and he's going to take and have it. he'll stand on his own feet he'll make sure he won't diss his kid the way his parents did and throw him out when the problem really isn't existant.

posted by Down the rabbit hole we go. at Friday, September 05, 2003

its been a bad day. life's never fair. i accept that fact. yeah. fuck life. its a piss

posted by Down the rabbit hole we go. at Friday, September 05, 2003

woke up at 710. as usual i'm going to be late for school so i thought i might as well burn a few CDs first. anywayz i've been thinking about Red Hot Chilli Peppers but i still don't get most of their lyrics - is there any real meaning behind them? is it about drugs? love? sex? friendship? has to be either one of these or maybe its a synthesis of all 4 ? been reading the history of the band and i've gotten a certain insight but still a lot remains fuzzy. if anyone of you know the meaning of their songs leave me a note k?

posted by Down the rabbit hole we go. at Thursday, September 04, 2003

upon reflection comes a dark realization that i'm steadily falling into a quagmire of self destruction. i'm becoming just like them, their influence has seeped through me and destroyed those ethics that i have always basked in. the holidays are coming, my last shot at redemption and to make things better i won't have to see them no sire not once during that 1 week. time to regroup and rally for the final challenge of the year. no point failing and crying over it in the end. it can happen to them, i don't really care. but its not going to happen to me & not to e ppl i give a damn about. no way. i've proved her wrong for the pass 3 years now's not the time to prove her right. not now not this year not ever. if i fail tomorrow, i might lose the battle. but its going to be a freezing cold day in hell before i lose the war. time to draw up the battle plans. counter attack.

posted by Down the rabbit hole we go. at Wednesday, September 03, 2003

don't u just love rainy days when you're at home cuddled up with a loved one? or maybe getting dirty playing rugby in the mud? well they may be extremes but those alternatives sure as hell beat the crap out of going to school soaked and having to suffer in the air conditioned classrooms and lts. i hope it pours cat and dogs tomorrow again. den i'll sit home to enjoy the rain n maybe hit e gym in e afternoon once the rain stops. rain drops keep falling on my head...la la la la



posted by Down the rabbit hole we go. at Tuesday, September 02, 2003

I need love, love to ease my mind
I need to find, find someone to call mine

But mama said you can't hurry love
No, you'll just have to wait
She said love don't come easy
It's a game of give and take
I can't hurry love, no, you'll just have to wait
Just trust, give it time
No matter how long it takes.....
Dixie Chicks - You can't hury love


so the long weekend's almost over. going to get started on history essay after this. its the last week of school. rejoice manz. hmmmz now let me see what i'm going to do for the next 2 weeks....hmmmz....weights ? definitely rugby ? definitely ...studying? definitely going to use the time to buck up....now what else..oh i need time for recreation too...
so here's e list


1)2 movies
2)try to build my punching bag
3)hcjc's midautumn fest.
4)try baking cookies for the first time in my life.


just had the sudden inspiration from eating famous amos cookies. "it takes heart to make a great cookie" that's what's written on the packaging. just wonder who's going to dare to try them. hmmz for starters my baking partner...now all i have to do is find one. omg i feel like i'm turing into a sissy. but *shrug* all the best cooks in the world are men. and i wonder if cookies will get stale if i mail em to the united states...


posted by Down the rabbit hole we go. at Monday, September 01, 2003

character 1: we should treat our bodies with respect.
character 2: and i treat mine like an amusement park.

amusement park it is ! i should start doing that. but fuck there's school and studies. *slumps into the seat* sigh. didn't do any work the whole week end.
aye i'm going to sleep. fuck it. see what kind of damage control i can carry out tomorrow. i'm stuck in a sinking ship with no way to abandon it and things are looking uglier and uglier by the minute.



posted by Down the rabbit hole we go. at Sunday, August 31, 2003