the cool breeze blew by and caressed my face. the large spacious brown benches. the friends around me. familiar surroundings. breathing the same air i've been breathing for the past 4 years of my life. this is home. here its hard to be alone. its hard to be unable to find someone who feels the same as you. its like a cocoon. a haven and sanctuary for me. why did i even try to break free from its warm grasp and stranglehold over my life since nothing changes elsewhere apart from the feeling of isolation. no matter where i go i still have to face the same shit.

its not enough being a sportsman and an academic i still have to be an aspiring philantrophist and whole lots of other pretenous shit just to get through my JC life. the system is just going to produce more and more pretenous Singaporeans which is something we don't need. i know i'm not going to be like that i give up. all i want from my JC life is friends rugby and my 4As. to everything else its fuck you and to those who are just trying to good testimonial too.

the setting sun casts its last rays on the basketball court and we're still going. running shooting laughing screaming. that's what life should be about. not the pretenous shit i encounter all the time in school. its dark. we finally stop. our tired bodies collasping onto the concrete tarmac with cans of 100 plus in our trembling hands. its been a tiring day. another day to add to our memories of the time we spent together. the times i spend with these people and my other close friends both here and in RJ are the ones i will remember for e rest of my life. the salty taste of 100 plus is refreshing. just like my view of life now. its changed.

posted by Down the rabbit hole we go. at Friday, June 20, 2003

life is a tremendous scam that tries to overwhelm your existance. some people get everything and others get nothing. you call that equity? i don't think so.


posted by Down the rabbit hole we go. at Friday, June 20, 2003

someone: "...n those guys with girlfriends have watched all the cartoons. and i don't watch cartoons!"
me: "what about your girlfriend?"
someone: " dun have one. what's the point? i don't want a structured life every saturday have to go out with her."
me: "being carefree is still the best right?"
someone: "yeah a swinging bachelor manz. think i won't get attached until all my friends start disappearing ( married ) "

cool.... i have to agree with him...swinging is the life manz...talked to another person about commitment realize that i maybe scared of that. but den...*shrug* i dunno leh... am i going to go on like that for e rest of my life? who cares lar. for now its play rugby and study. simple formula. with plenty of time to do weights and chill out with friends. you inspire me. e inspiration transcends all aspects of life. thanks for e movie too i shall consider paying u back tho Ju-On did suck big time. =P


posted by Down the rabbit hole we go. at Wednesday, June 18, 2003

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i just wish and hope this is true......wish wish wish on a falling star....


posted by Down the rabbit hole we go. at Tuesday, June 17, 2003

pain is the way. no pain no gain. deal the pain. i will be the pain.

posted by Down the rabbit hole we go. at Monday, June 16, 2003

a classic example

today was a classic example of a day well spent. nope not sitting at home and slacking it out or walking around town aimlessly but more like doing important stuff such as training and meeting up with friends i haven't seen in a long time. did weights with weiming in the morning before going to town to meet belle n yaxin n tasha. haven't met belle and tasha in a long time. tasha is sooooo cute now! grew taller too... and more cheeky as well. taking my wallet and running away with it =P yaxin u are a bad influence MANZ... belle's still the same i guess she's having a great time in AC now... we had lunch at crystal jade *broke* before walking belle n tasha off to their movie. went to Nee Soon army camp for safsa training after that. PT manz... -bleah- aniwae found out that Thomas is kelven's cousin... small world manz... feel so tired now...but good...


posted by Down the rabbit hole we go. at Monday, June 16, 2003