first things first. I HATE AUSTRALIA AND FRANCE. stupid god damn Aussies...damnit... i'm speechless..22-10 was..fair...now if tomorrow by the worst twist of fate possible England ends up losing to France.....grrrr.....i can't bear to think about it....so johnny please make sure you're on target tomorrow! its in your hands! don't throw it away like macdonald did today! just give me the chance to sing Swing Low Sweet Chariot tomorrow...and next saturday too....now's not the time to fall apart...pls pls...

secondly...i have decided i shall stay in Blacks and i hope everyone else does the same too. i mean what's the material benefits compared to the inmaterial benefits like friends? and i mean rugby is about the friends n teammates you play with too right? so all of u pls reconsider if ur thinking of V-ing. i mean...remember the dinners, the matches, the treats @ flanagans etc. etc. it'll also be a good get together and a place to stay in touch! like the plan to go watch RWC 2011 when we're 25 and hopefully rich.

thirdly...i have decided to appeal for a 2nd S paper just for fun. alvin loke says i ought to anyway... since i did get A for lit. now now how would it feel like if someone in PE t shirt shorts n slippers with golden streaked hair walks into the office and hands up a letter for S paper appeal. hahaz that would be something... shall take for fun and drop later if need be. i mean what ya going to do about it??????????
hahahahahaz



posted by Down the rabbit hole we go. at Saturday, November 15, 2003

so cut me loose. let me feel and taste my own blood on my lips. may the pain from the seared tissue send electrical impulses of pain to the brain. may it remind me that i'm still alive and not living in a stasis of failure.

posted by Down the rabbit hole we go. at Friday, November 14, 2003

i am so going to blow out tomorrow morning...found this excrept from flex
you stand alone, 10 plates in the hole. It's you versus the weight. You're thinking "i'm gonna get frigging crushed" you're thinking "i'm not going to get up" But you will. Yeah you'll puke. Yeah, it'll be hard getting off the crapper the next couple of days. BUt it'll be worth it, cuz whent here's chalk on your hands and sweat on your back , there's no better place in the world. This is pain. This is animal. this is for me. ...
if you focus your mind when you're doin weights and think of someone you hate you tend to hmm.....i like that. YOU'RE on my mind tomorrow morning...but once i limp out of the gym you're straight out the window. not great to think about people you hate all the time. but just gotta harness the negative energies to do something good.

posted by Down the rabbit hole we go. at Thursday, November 13, 2003

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never though it would be this...well it sounds and seems more like the junren of the past...maybe one's character dies hard...nowadays i'm hardly like that or maybe i make myself believe that i'm not like that anymore...someone more akin to hate of everything that consumes me from within...plus since when did my family give a shit...i'm always the black sheep the one who gives the problems the selfish one the uncaring one...everything associated with the negativa now that's more like the me the world including parents see me. i guess none of em see me...or maybe that is the true me and i just refused to admit it till now.

past dreams...i've had too many....dreamt of being a Navy pilot who lives on an aircraft carrier...dreamt of being a mercenary...dreamt of being a top banker with an investment bank like morgan stanley...dreamt of being a lawyer...dreamt of love...but all you need is someone or some event to bring you straight back down to reality and you'll realize that for most of the times dreams remain dreams. these days i hardly dream, i'm afraid to...dreams turn to the nightmares of reality too quickly. so i join the pack who supposedly chase their dreams but are only chasing for the security and stability of a mundane existance. how long will i last in this race for something i don't even want? who knows.

posted by Down the rabbit hole we go. at Wednesday, November 12, 2003

Talk to me softly
There's something in your eyes
Don't hang your head in sorrow
And please don't cry
I know how you feel inside I've
I've been there before
Somethin's changin' inside you
And don't you know

Don't you cry tonight
I still love you baby
Don't you cry tonight
Don't you cry tonight
There's a heaven above you baby
And don't you cry tonight
Guns & Roses - Don't Cry

posted by Down the rabbit hole we go. at Tuesday, November 11, 2003

swimming is good. i should make it a habit to swim more and go out less. yes...kissing the extensive social life good bye.

posted by Down the rabbit hole we go. at Monday, November 10, 2003

Swing low, sweet chariot,
Comin' for to carry me home!



posted by Down the rabbit hole we go. at Sunday, November 09, 2003