since the creator of e royal fingers doesn't like me using it i'll drop it. sorry to infringe on ur copyright. now moving on, i shall take up some highly constructive comments and stop complaining about how unfair life is. and gillian is right i'm already better off than a lot of other people in the world so if anyone should be complaining its them. anyway weiyang if ur reading this...my good friend from hcjc just told me that he's ur cousin....hahahaz...coincidental stuff..-yawn- time for sleep and some iron tomorrow...just to keep the sanity. hmmz the orcs in warcraft go "work work" don't they? well its "mug mug" for me


posted by Down the rabbit hole we go. at Saturday, September 20, 2003

someone was talking about how pissed he gets when he sees wayne rooney in the papers and thinks about how much he earns per week and i just can't help but agree...what the fuck are we doing with our lives man? look there's michael phelps the USA swimmer who's 18 and broken a hell lot of records, then there's gorgeous keira who's also 18... and hmmz..rockoko..drew barrymore when she was younger...enough for examples. bottomline is that being born in singapore ensures that you won't be a begger but it also ensures that you'll never be a super high flyer who's going to be famous and all. you'll just be someone with a 9-5 office job in an airconditioned room kissing your bosses asses and guess what nobody will know that you ever existed. just a small pawn in a game of chest. not even a bishop, castle or knight...that's how small and insignificant we are. so we have 3 options. (1)fuck your exams and keep on dreaming. highly applicable to some ppl frm my class "with FU(ngraded/absent)CB and failed mother tongue i'll be able to go to Yale!" yay! hopefully one day a lorry will knock you down and put you permenantly into the land of happy dreams where the teletubbies rule and your brain juice decorates the sidewalk. (2)mug for your exams and keep on dreaming that your work will all pay off and you'll get out of the system. "jibai la school sucks. fuck la promos coming nabei i'm going to study"(3)mug till the dust even collects on your pristine white uniform in a zealous pursuit of your scholarship also highly applicable to some people from my class. "shit i've finished studying econs and promos are in 4 weeks shit must mug harder" a baseball bat with nails would be a nice gift for them. wow what polarity. no wonder i've got something against them well not all of them are fucking irritating there are the few exceptions thankfully. well, *brandishes both royal fingers* to the others. now i fit into (2) and so do most of my friends i guess so its back to fucking mugging for promos....





posted by Down the rabbit hole we go. at Friday, September 19, 2003

anyway 5/16 for fucking silas chao marner jibai test. woo hoo doesn't it just look like i'm going to fail promos? oh fuck you. *brandishes finger* its not tested. hehe. the usual people were conveniently absent once again...now if only mr. mc connell would read this...on second thought i guess not cause its full of my favourite profanities. ahhh the stress relief accorded to myself for spewing f-u-c-k or j-i-b-a-i 24-7. i am such an uncouth brute. hmmmz i like it this way.

over the past few days i've been facing a whole lot of nonsense from all sorts of fucked up people but there seems to be this phrase that keeps ringing in my ears. "let your actions speak louder than your words" it wasn't directed to me but i'll still take the advice. yeahz....i guess my role modelling isn't as bad as i thought.

posted by Down the rabbit hole we go. at Wednesday, September 17, 2003

life's smooth. its good when i'm out of the classroom. be it doing work at the table or chiong-ing at the gym. i'll just avoid the certain people that i don't trust. yeah you know who i'm refering to. no its not one person. its the whole group of them. one mistake i learned from the fate of someone close to me is to be clear on who you can trust and who you can't. the cards are laid out in front of me. its clear for me to see. i don't want to have anything to do with any of you.

posted by Down the rabbit hole we go. at Wednesday, September 17, 2003

...Yet I thought thee
(For thou lov'st truth) an Angell, at first sight,
But when I saw thou saw'st my heart,
And knew'st my thoughts, beyond an Angels art,
When thou knew'st what I dreamt, when thou knew'st when
Excess of joy would wake me, and cam'st then,
I do confesse, it could not chuse but bee
Profane, to thinke thee any thing but thee....

The Dream - JOhn Donne
blashpemous shit. no one is that perfect. errare humanum est. its all a lie...

went to hcjc for the maf yesterday. it was fun seeing everybody again. diyan n e uncles, jiale, mark and the other j2s. there were a lot of crashers too. plenty of rjc people around. for one of the few times during the holidays i feel that i'm making use of my time properly. it was nice just walking around, chilling out with the guys. and chasing uncle tianchee too. he got bush-ed and pole-ed more than 3 times. we finally ended it by tau poking him. hadec diyan ivan and all the other heavy weights. it was amusing watching him run with the sparkler while diyan and the others waited for his 'time' to end before chiong-ing him. sometimes i just can't help but feel that hcjc is more homely because every where i go there's always a familiar friendly face. its like chinese high all over again in some way. thankfully i've discovered a small niche for myself over here or i'll be regretting even more. but like i told alvin, we came here for a purpose and we gotta fulfill that purpose while trying to have as much fun as possible along the way. well one thing is for sure. no matter its hcjc or rjc. or any other jc for that matter. life academically is pretty much fucked up. which reminds me i have got to meet up with denzyl and quan ning soon... haven't hung out with them in a damn long time. & mark sim too, well after his prelims i guess..just once to chill out. can't forget the fucking irritating promos. ayez.

posted by Down the rabbit hole we go. at Sunday, September 14, 2003

my definition of a screwed up life and possible solutions

1)a sprained ankle which doesn't allow me to run
solution: i'm seeing a physio on wednesday....fuck e chinese quack doctors
2)being unable to do weights cause i sprained my left side of the lower back chasing a bus on 1 leg
solution: i hope it'll be fine by tomorrow
3)promos in 4 weeks
solution: cannot be solved
4)lack of motivation to study
solution: have to find motivation, people to study with, good places to study
5)2 literature assignments due tomorrow
solution: do it NOW...
6)wanting to watch turn left turn right
solution: drag some people to watch it...

so yeahz.........hopefully i can solve all the problems by next friday heh

posted by Down the rabbit hole we go. at Sunday, September 14, 2003