Gerard Houllier often remarked during the 02-03 season that "Liverpool has turned the corner" though they never did.... well i think after a long transition phase which began from that day i decided to skip school to just stay home and think i have finally turned the corner. the hope in fulfilling my dream is not yet revived but the desire to go out n appreciate everything that is offered to me is. the drive, the fire to go out n engage it and not just survive it has returned.
yes gill i am jaded but i won't let it get me down. fight. i have gotten up from the apathy, ready to fight again. oh and all of you out there who just keep on dreaming about universities snap out of that man........fight for your place.....you have to be different dynamic.... you have to stand out from the crowd to make it....smartness n brilliance n grades aren't enough...

you always stand out of the crowd. a born leader. someone who has faith, confidence & most importantly a heart. hardly a wonder why you've fulfilled your dream and stand on the brink of the experience of studying overseas. you're the example to follow for those who only know how to dream of going abroad but who just can't seem to do anything bout it. ( yes - those who dream of Upenn Brown Stanford n whatever Cockford there is out there and just keep talking about it without making any move to fulfill that dream. *brandishes the finger*) your inspiration, motivation, advice and guidance - i will draw strength from them. one day. i'll be just like you. one day. i'll fulfill my dream.

posted by Down the rabbit hole we go. at Saturday, August 09, 2003

i was reading Comrades by Stephen E Ambrose....


Friendship is different from all other relationships. Unlike acquaintanceship it is based on love. Unlike lovers and married couples it is free of jealousy. UNlike children and parents it knows neither criticism nor resentment. Friendship has no status in law. Business partnerships are based on a contract. So is marriage. Parents are bound by law, so are children. But friendship is freely entered to, freely given, freely exercised.


Friends never cheat each other, or take advantage or lie. Friends do not spy on one another, yet they have no secrets. Friends glory in each other's successes and are downcast by the failures. Friends minister to each other, nurse each other. Friends give to each other, worry bout each other, stand always ready to help. Perfect friendship is rarely achieved, but at its height it is an ecstasy. For Lewis and Clark, it was such an ecstasy, and the critical factor in their great success. BUt even at its highest, friendship is human, not godlike. For all his efforts and intentions, Clark could not save Lewis. But they gave to each other everything that can be drawn from a friendship, including their finest moments.Through their trust of each other they put themselves into the top rank of world explorers. And they gave to their country its epic poem while introducingthe American people to the American West.

posted by Down the rabbit hole we go. at Friday, August 08, 2003

reality hurts


don't you think its scary how at one stretch of history we were the closest of friends and at another stretch we're almost strangers? it sends shudders down my spine. i still remember so clearly that it feels like everything we have ever gone through together happened just yesterday. now i don't know your problems and you don't know mine. -sigh- maybe gillian's right.....i do suck. i'll try my best to make up for it since now i'll be seeing you more often then in the last 8 mths. as for you, i'll put in my utmost effort to ensure that it does not fail. no matter the distance between us and the length of seperation. i'll find some way to see you off...there has to be a way.

on a brighter note, the long weekend will allow me to catch up on everything. it won't be that superbly enjoyable. but cheers nonetheless. jack daniel's cola rox. hahaz i'm no patriot i'm only celebrating cause there's no school.

posted by Down the rabbit hole we go. at Friday, August 08, 2003

a man's worth is not measured by what he does for himself but for what he does for others.


well yes folks august 5th is my birthday and you guys really made it a very special day for me. my heartfelt thanks and appreciation to all those who treated me in 1 way or another and who offered their congratulations. its really encouraging to know that there are people out there who actually know and acknowledge your existance. you guys just made my day and the rest of the year too. ( stupid ten year series thief won't spoil my day!) i've found another and probably one of the most important reasons why i have hope in living: its you guys, e people i know as friends.

ohhh....the first bubbles of the lava lamp just emerged! its so beautiful....its really cool... gillian yaxin isabelle tim weiming weiyang jimmy & sheila thanks so much!!!!!! =) just looking at it is therapheutic ! huishan huifang and siewjun thanks for the delicious cake! and 1a01a peeps thanks for the cake too!

just got a call from one of my close friends who's leaving for america on sunday.... he wished me "happy birthday" i just felt torn apart in 2 different directions. am i supposed to feel elated that he remembered my birthday or saddened by the fact that he's leaving soon? when i placed the receiver back down at the end of the conversation i could feel tears welling up in my eyes. i'm so scared that i'll lose him that we'll drift apart and become strangers. and i'm pissed off that i might not be able to go and send him off as well because of u19 training. i want to give him that last embrace and wish him bon voyage, send him my support for him to spread his wings and reach for the stars. -sigh- if you ever read just...know that you have my full support and that your courage and your strong personality has always been my inspiration. i will never forget you. you'll always be my good friend. ---> my birthday resolution: treasure my friends more than i have ever done before.





posted by Down the rabbit hole we go. at Tuesday, August 05, 2003