COMPROMISE IS NOT POSSIBLE!
OUR PRINCIPLES ARE OUR PRINCIPLES AND CANNOT BE CHANGED!
when one believes so strongly in what he is doing, he cannot be swayed.
when his principles come into conflict with that of others, he will not back down.
for too long, i have shown compromise with those whose principles have come into conflict with mine.
i no longer shall. hawks and hardliners never give way. to backdown is to fail. and FAILURE IS UNACCEPTABLE.

posted by Down the rabbit hole we go. at Friday, February 27, 2004

in that cell of pain you taught me pride,
lighting a fire that burns bright.

in that cell of pain you crafted thy armour,
equal to a dipping in the river styx

but to look on you now,
vanquished ashes of pride,
buried under jaded reluctance
is to look upon a dead phoenix.




posted by Down the rabbit hole we go. at Thursday, February 26, 2004

i keep dishing people, i wonder sometimes if what i say is fair or am i just being mean. but i realize i shouldn't care because i'm driven by an obesession for success., it clouds my judgement, never losing sight of the goal. in the process, i dish those who just don't see the same end, those who don't see that herculean effort is required, those who don't come for training. the ends justify the means. and i'll keep doing it, in fact, i intend to make it worse. respect needs to be earned.

posted by Down the rabbit hole we go. at Wednesday, February 25, 2004

for pride, honour and glory. for the batches gone by. to live a life of no regrets. that image still sticks in my mind, the two of you clasping the flag against the setting sun crying. it drives me. i never made an empty promise. i am and have been training fucking hard...but can the rest of you say the same for yourselves? when i make a promise i intend to keep it. i don't know about you people...

posted by Down the rabbit hole we go. at Tuesday, February 24, 2004

zhihon: you wouldn't believe this but i'm actually glad to hear from you, stupid malaysian! haven't talked to you in damn long better come school and do weights one of these days, and show off ur funky hair !

the past 24 hours has been hellish but i think it'll get better. hopefully. i fight to not read too much into her words i fight the hope that is swelling up, trying to suppress it before it consumes me. floating in an abstractness that i can't describe.

from history we learn many lessons. Chernov [SR leader]: 'Lenin possess a devotion to the revolutionary cause which permeates his entire being...' devotion, dedication and commitment are the fundamental requirements for success. i constantly question my discipline in maintaining them. but then i realize, its not about me, its about us. we rise and fall as a team.

posted by Down the rabbit hole we go. at Monday, February 23, 2004

Hold me close and hold me fast
The magic spell you cast
This is La vie en rose

if only........

posted by Down the rabbit hole we go. at Sunday, February 22, 2004