You are Agent Smith. Ruthless, you hunt down
members of the Resistance with your hand cannon
and with a little help from within...
However, there IS some wisdom to your words:

"I'd like to share a revelation I had during
my time here. It came to me when I tried to
classify your species. I realized that you're
not actually mammals. Every mammal on this
planet instinctively develops a natural
equilibrium with the surrounding environment
but you humans do not. You move to an area and
you multiply until every natural resource is
consumed. The only way you can survive is to
spread to another area. There is another
organism on this planet that follows the same
pattern. Do you know what it is? A virus. Human
beings are a disease, a cancer of this planet.
You are a plague, and we, are the cure."


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posted by Down the rabbit hole we go. at Friday, May 02, 2003

Make or Break

its May 1st. Labour day. indeed a month of intense labour begins today. no its not just the rugby season, i still have to study for my SAT I on June 7th and there's still the pre-u seminar to worry about. I'm scared i won't be able to cope. i'm worried. i realise that the chinese high people that i came to rj with are just too bastard or damn closet mugger apart from james....but james is going soon and that's what makes things worse. -sigh- i miss the chinese high days. all e people who are i was really closed to den miss em too but its too late to turn back the hands of time. all we can do is to look forward and work for the best. the people i chill with are all in other schools and they all now have new commitments and stuff -sigh- and in rj there's hardly anybody to chill with...the class? i'm getting quite sick of em already pessimistic and all...the ruggers? yar maybe...guess we should make a greater effort to go out on non-training days and during holidays....be a closet mugger? *shrug* its just not me...maybe i don't belong here. i think its fuck-ed up. maybe i'm just too slack maybe its the system i don't know.

i'm so lost. i don't know where to start. lost. when i get to school i just feel lost. when i get to class i feel lost too. i'm just not able to connect with many of em not all but some though it doesn't seem that way. superficially we may click but it'll never be the kind of unbreakable bond *shrug* oh well. no point brooding about it now. as ivan puts it today "if rj can provide you the road of education, the brandname and the sport that you want just go for it... if you feel bad or anything just drop over to hc and we can pon lecture and go have coffee and talk it through!"

the season starts next wednesday. I want to be able to completely focus my energies on the season but i just can't help have an eye on my school academics and the upcoming SATs its like having to worry about 3 things or probably more than 3 things at a certain point of time and its only going to get worse. I don't know what to do. i have to throw something out. its definitely not the season cause that's e main reason i came to rj ...rugby is not a sideshow like e way it was back in chinese high..its everything here.. and it can't be my SATs too cause its going to be Part I of my ticket (that will be confirmed by janurary next year ) out of this country -sigh- so its academics..but i need my promos too..i'm scared in June i won't be able to catch up...so scared...scared... den i realize if i'm so scared of everything what's the point in even living? good question. i don't know the answer. but i intend to find out. Carpe Diem - seize the day...seize the opportunities...

posted by Down the rabbit hole we go. at Thursday, May 01, 2003

it's been missing for so long....

ruthless aggression. now that's the missing part of the jigsaw. the part that i somehow left behind in a dark corner of my mind. after watching wrestlemania on vcd i just felt myside go mad delirious in fact especially during the shawn michaels vs chris jericho match . people say its play acting and shit but lets just make believe that its real why be so cynical? the never die spirit the brutality the aggression ahhh...its like an injection of metabolic steriods... I just felt the pulse bursting through my veins. i went up to the pull up bar and did 16 close grip pull ups...this is insanity...yes...i've never done it before....the latent power one has...the difference between a champion and a loser is this: the ability to harness this latent power and to control it. now that i have found that source of strength i need to know how to draw it out and unleash it. Triple H "I am the game...I am the pain"


posted by Down the rabbit hole we go. at Tuesday, April 29, 2003

Pain

what is pain? a tormenting sensation? an electrical impulse from the nerves to the brain? pain - ah ....i feel it no more. training has made me numb to pain, cuts and knocks deal their damage but i suck it all up and it breathes new impetus into me i feel the resurgent adrenaline rush in my veins as it brings new life and energy to the already fatigued muscles. but the tolerance of pain slowly burns holes in this shining armour of mine, cracks appear, and the infestation seeps through these cracks spliting the armour apart. the exterior may not feel the pain but its still there and the damage done continues to eat away at the carrion until one day the system breaks down and the armour falls into a heap of rusting metal. no i'm no masochist pain is necessary no pain no gain but enduring pain for no obvious reason or for a stupid one for that matter doesn't serve any purpose but to deepen the lines of weakness for no obvious gain in any other sector so don't be so stupid and don't chase the bus in the morning anymore.

posted by Down the rabbit hole we go. at Monday, April 28, 2003

You are a dark writer. A fierce and loyal follower
of Poe and the other gothic authors, you LOVE
to instill a sense of revulsion and somewhat
fear in your readers. You love to poke their
brains with logic dealing with the darker side
of the human mind and character. Truly
surprising and a true individual, you'll do
ANYTHING to create a scene. :)


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posted by Down the rabbit hole we go. at Sunday, April 27, 2003

e weekend

this weekend has just zipped by without me knowing it. i guess i had an early weekend cause i didn't go to school on friday. overslept paiseh -grin- went to town to meet danny before going for training. training at RI was damn fun. for the first time we got to use the floodlights and we trained until 830. it was actually pouring for a short period of time with lightning and thunder everywhere but we didn't bother and just continued training. ruggers are mad ! we did line outs line outs and more line outs. after that we went on to team run, offensive then defensive. i love training its an escape for me an escape from life from reality cause during training you;re totally focused you don't think about anything else plus you run until you're haggarded and all anyway rjc rugby rocks the season is coming up soon and i'm quite psyched up for it i just hope i get a decent amount of game time.

went for class bbq and stayed over at brandon's house. had a nice chat with clara tung haha she told me not to regret staying and stuff cause the rjc humanities programme really exists ! and like at least i belong to a team and stuff which is very true. i'm over e depression thing over not choosing hc already i guess. oh well but when i was talking to lynette and brandon in e middle of the night and the wee hours of the morning just couldn't help feeling depressed gee arts people especially a01a people are damn depressing ! woke up at 12 the next day, went to eat brunch at ghim moh with clara ng brandon and gabriel gn... went home to dump my stuff before going all the bloody hell long way to tjc to meet jianwei hcjc was playing a triangular with nyjc and tjc so i just decided to go n watch before playing lan. hahaz nyjc better watch out they're grouped with us and if they can get wacked by hc.. i think they better watch out manz....tjc was worse -bleah- heh well there're now a lot of new ruggers in hc to take up the places left by those who deserted ( notably those who went rjc and sajc ) there's michael who was in squash in tchs he was zai dunno why he quit..henghui e ex judoka...lenith e J2 waterpolo goalkeeper...david dOg jimmy cAt's bro... and many others... gee michael is going to play flanker.. i can't imagine him going up against ian or zihon or tziyang..will get crushed leh big time.. played lan den went home...

sunday was spent doing work and slacking about revamping my blog ! yaY...aniwae discussing project proposal on MSN now... better go...wrestlemania later...


posted by Down the rabbit hole we go. at Sunday, April 27, 2003

You're nothing, really. But you're nice.


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posted by Down the rabbit hole we go. at Sunday, April 27, 2003