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attitude
arrogance belief that you'll win. - the only time i really believed in turning the tables and going against the odds was against ri in sec2. and yes it happened. in sec4 they said pioneer would be damn good. i believed we could fight the odds and win. it was close but we lost. against ri it was not about believing in fighting the impossible but doing something that should be done. well it wasn't done. they say in life you win some you lose some. well losing some changes things. now come to think of it, i should be looking at my own mental conditioning. its not good. maybe its because i am not doing things that i ought to be doing. maybe i care too much about the opposition before a run. throwing my focus out of balance. maybe i am too excited and i focus more on making the crash instead of catching the ball first. its too late to have a chance to try out and see if a change has taken effect. all i can do is to think about it and hope and pray that it does. asking yourself not whether you'll win or not but by how much you'll win btw i just read somewhere about the match between rjc and sajc being close. what fucking bullshit. maybe they should go read the official match report on the sru homepage. the margin is close. but it doesn't mean a thing. tradition has to be kept up. and it will be. no change next year. just that the margin will be wider. in favour of the perenial winners of this so called slugfest. its not they we care about actually. what we care about is the title. i have adopted boxer's motto : i will work harder. and i will. i must. if i wanted to lose i would have just stayed away. posted by Down the rabbit hole we go. at Saturday, May 24, 2003
Everything’s so blurry
and everyone's so fake everybody’s empty and everything is so messed up preoccupied without you I cannot live at all my whole world surrounds you I stumble and I crawl & you could be my someone you can be my scene you know that I’ll protect you from all of the obscene I wonder what your doing imagine where you are there's oceans in between us but that’s not very far (Chorus) can you take it all away can you take it all away well you shoved it in my face this pain you gave to me can you take it all away can you take it all away well you shoved it in my face this pain you gave to me everyone is changing there’s no one left that’s real make up your own ending and let me know just how you feel cause I am lost without you I cannot live at all my whole world surrounds you I stumble then I crawl you could be my someone you can be my scene you know that I will save you from all of the unclean I wonder what your doing I wonder where you are there’s oceans in between us but that’s not very far (Chorus) Can you take it all away Can you take it all away well you shoved it in my face the pain you gave to me Nobody told me what you thought nobody told me what to say everyone showed you where to turn showed you when to run away nobody showed you where to hide nobody told you what to say everyone showed you where to turn showed you when to run away (Chorus) Can you take it all away can you take it all away can you take away the pain the pain you gave to me this pain you gave to me there are many things i think of before i fall asleep. the most important being what i am going to say to her if i ever got to talk to her tomorrow. i have only seen her twice this week and said hi once. (and i still haven't asked for her no. ! ) its not killing me. but sometimes i just can't help thinking about her. just a thought of a smile. my friend asked me what i liked about her and i couldn't answer the question. i just said it takes a minute to have a crush on someone, but a lifetime to love someone. well i guess this is a crush. ok a major crush. but i don't know her well enough to know what i like about her as of yet. for now its just an abstract feeling summed up in the trepidation i get when i try to strike up a conversation. will this crush just die with the passing of time or will it become something great? i don't know. time will tell. just gotta focus on my own life and taking my chances as they come. posted by Down the rabbit hole we go. at Thursday, May 22, 2003
i guess you're so bored and lifeless that you actually had the time to come here and take a nice peek? well that's hardly surprising. its all gone now. satisfied? but remember this. thoughts cannot be silenced. everyone is entitled to an opinion. if thoughts could be controlled the world wouldn't be what it is today. the enlightenment would have never happened. it'll take more than that to resolve this problem between not just the 2 of us but the rest of the class as well. i'm just reflecting the general feelings of everyone else in my way, the crude way.
as for you, the informer. i guess you must be feeling mighty proud of yourself now. its really kind of expected. but sadly for you i won't bother myself with hunting you down and making you pay in more ways than one. i can rip you apart with my bare hands if i wanted to. there's 2 sides to me. the caged predator and the nicer human being. but no i won't... cause its hardly appropriate to waste time on such a low life scum bag like yourself and don't think doing what you have done will intimidate me to move this blog. i'm not like you and your purple dinosaur din u know that barney doesn't have ballz?. i'm here to stay and there's nothing you can do about it. so piss off scum cause you're just wasting my time. posted by Down the rabbit hole we go. at Thursday, May 22, 2003
back to where it started.
today. the Police Academy. the place where it all began in 2001. i can still remember that final which i watched. it was A division, RJC vs ACJC..e atmosphere e feeling..e way both teams were playing..that was what made me want to come to raffles... to be part of a team that will lift the police cup. and that time is close at hand. the police academy was where a dream that i have followed so far began. a dream which i have deliberated whether or not to give up on on so many occasions. i thought of hcjc being more homely... i thought of joining another cca instead of rugby since it was and still is killing me... but i guess not... this is where i belong, one of the places where i am among people who i feel at home with. i guess it was my most psyched up game... and if you want to measure it in terms of work rate today was immense compared to the other games... but yeah dropped 2 ballz shit... sigh i wonder why i drop so many ballz it didn't use to be like that.. have to solve that problem. ah wellz apart from the game today was just another normal day... another day when i din even get to catch a glimpse of her let alone say a word to her..oh well... life ain't that bad now at least i'm emergin from depression. hell yeah its getting better. aniwae today's greatest hit is Karmel. yes. excellent song. guitarist : leon , vocals : yeow kuan and tzi yang... great stuff manz... HAHAHAHAHHAA posted by Down the rabbit hole we go. at Wednesday, May 21, 2003
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