These are the days

well guess the past 2 days have been eventful though not for positive things. on wednesday i skipped edmund kwok's history lecture and he actually noticed i wasn't there. got into some shit with mr. mcconnell and today i got an appointment to talk to kwok about things. -bleah- i shall go and see him tomorrow. sianz

anyway we played yishun JC and won by 34-0. i don't want to talk about the game it was horrible to say the least. i don't want to point fingers at people but well everyone knows who screwed it all up and i hope it'll all be better when we play cjc on saturday. sigh come on guys people expect more of us. FUCKING UNDERSTAND ????? well the coaches decided to make major changes to the team that played on wednesday and so now we have a new starting line up, full of unexpected surprises and some expected ones like the tight 5. oh well must take our chances against CJC...

what made things better or maybe even worse was going to watch HCJC vs ACJC in the waterpolo finals. HCJC won of course, haha knew they wouldn't waste our time. and ACJC ? just fuck off. think we really frightened the keeper, hope we made him cry. i know i'm an asshole/fucker but who cares. cheering with all my chinese high friends makes me wish i had turned back the clock and ejoy the chances i had to do that in secondary school and maybe even went HCJC.. i don't know larz the feeling still lingers. being in raffles is sometimes bittersweet, bitter on days when u don't do well at matches or when ur alma mater gets insulted by ur history teacher ... sweet? i don't know what's sweet about life here i'm still trying to find out.

posted by Down the rabbit hole we go. at Thursday, May 08, 2003

fuck this.

welcome to junren's life. something screwed up. maybe not something out of a comic book - i wished i had claws and super healing and regeneration powers, but still something screwed up. now where shall i begin? how about monday morning. well well guess what the usual monday blues again. woke up feeling like someone hit me with a sledgehammer in my sleep. luckily i didn't miss the bus today. gee first greeting i got in school was from zi hon, nice middle finger. well at least he brought the V.S Naipaul book i wanted to borrow from him. school was as boring as it could get for e first few periods and break wasn't great either except that i said hi to someone and she said hi back! wow brightened my day. after that was rollason lecture so it was good ( as usual ). before lessons became a bore again. kwok's history tutorial's are the worst. i actually went for P.E hahaha..camped in the canteen for a while before spotting tziyang for dips and den playing touch.

training felt like a killer. I don't know why maybe its the lack of food my stomach felt like there was a hole in it and maybe cause i actually got chosen to start. damn it i had better make good use of this opportunity and play to my best tomorrow. stupid RI softballers using the field so we could only start training at 730pm. we actually did down ups at the end of it. WHAT THE HELL. i thought it was all over when ray said alright all line up on the sideline i wanted to puke in front of him. but anyway we did about 5 down ups. and a few extras, NABEI. ok it sounds easy but why don't you fucking try and tell me how it feels? by the time we were done it was 930pm. kukujiao i'm sure i can get home in time to watch friends. by the time i got home smallville was over. *pengz* knocked out on the bed. fuck only ruggers are so crazy. siao.

today it got even more boring. -yawn- got to school just in time for flag raising. den went for classes again. -yawn- -yawn- sucks.tried studying econs during chinese break. only managed price elasticity. well guess what i saw e class girls reading university prospectus and tzeyin actually came up to ask me if she could take SATs in October. *bleah* later during maths tim and i was sitting on the opposite side of the classroom from the tai-tai club. well guess what? i don't know why but i realize that they're really not the kind of people that i have known before. most of the girls that i happen to know quite well and before i came into this class are all quite sporty unlike the tai-tais who cannot even stand going for PE. gee.-shrug- the way they think and work are also different. maybe its something with sports people but they don't sit around talk and dream and get depressed, they don't think so much they just go out and get things done. yeah they get things done. they don't live in their own world of dreams. dreams will come to nothing without effort, which reminds me that i have only 1 CCA and i don't even know if i'll get exco position. plus my lit. sucks. I really need to do well and get confirmation of a place in Uni by this year i don't know if i can survive A levels. fuck siaz. i will go out and try to get things done. no more sitting around and dreaming. only good thing today was that i actually talked to her at break. making conversation with someone you barely know is such a difficult thing. but heh. school got worse. lucky no more of the tutorial's this week.
tomorrow we're playing YJC. i gotta focus and play the game properly. i can do it. i will not let the others down. God give me strength and a right state of mind. YJC watch out. We're bringing the pain to you.

Bowling for Soup
Girl All The Bad Guys Want

8 o'clock, Monday night and I'm waitin'
To finally talk to a girl a little cooler than me.
Her name is Nona, she's a rocker with a nose ring,
She wears a two way, but I'm not quite sure what that means.

And when she walks,
All the wind blows and the angels sing.
She doesn't notice me!

Cause she is watchin' wrestling
Creamin' over tough guys
Listenin' to rap metal
Turntables in her eyes

It's like a bad movie
She is lookin' through me
If you were me, then you'd be
Screamin' "Someone shoot me!"
As I fail miserably,
Tryin' to get the girl all the bad guys want.
She's the girl all the bad guys want!

She likes the godsmack and I like agent orange
Her cd changer's full of singers that are mad at their dad
She says she'd like to score some reefer and a forty
She'll never know that I'm the best that she'll never have

And when she walks,
All the wind blows and the angels sing.
She'll never notice me!

Cause she is watchin' wrestling
Creamin' over tough guys
Listenin' to rap metal
Turntables in her eyes

She likes 'em with a mustache
Racetrack season pass
Drivin' in a Trans-Am
Does a mullet make a man?

It's like a bad movie
She is lookin' through me
If you were me, then you'd be
Screamin' "Someone shoot me!"
As I fail miserably,
Tryin' to get the girl all the bad guys want.
She's the girl all the bad guys want!
She's the girl all the bad guys want!
She's the girl all the bad guys want!

There she goes again
With fishnets on, and dreadlocks in her hair
She broke my heart, I wanna be sedated
All I wanted was to see her naked!

Now I am watchin' wrestling
Tryin' to be a tough guy
Listenin' to rap metal
Turntables in my eyes
I can't grow a mustache
And I ain't got no season pass
All I got's a moped...moped....moped.....

It's like a bad movie
She is lookin' through me
If you were me, then you'd be
Screamin' "Someone shoot me!"
As I fail miserably,
Tryin' to get the girl all the bad guys want.

She's the girl all the bad guys want!
She's the girl all the bad guys want!
She's the girl all the bad guys want!
She's the girl all the bad guys want!
(There she goes again)
She's the girl all the bad guys want!
She's the girl all the bad guys want!
(There she goes again)
She's the girl all the bad guys want!
She's the girl all the bad guys want!




posted by Down the rabbit hole we go. at Tuesday, May 06, 2003