on the bus home from lan after training i was talking to alvin and terence bout the junior class and like e party and the buddy system thing. they asked the same question. why is weiming doing everything? he's the CT rep? then i realize that someone's actually getting points for doing nothing. i have a coach whose favourite phrase is "life sucks...so get on with it" i guess that's how unfair life is...-shrug- nothing i can do about it but to GET ON WITH MY OWN LIFE. some tiny spoilt kid's really being a nusiance too..luckily i'm not directly involved but i sure as hell pity weiming and cheech for having to bear with her nonsense.



posted by Down the rabbit hole we go. at Saturday, January 10, 2004

even if the price is too high i have paid it and to turn back now would only be to throw away everything that i have ever dreamt and worked for. the belief and desire is there. turning back now would be giving away whatever God has bestowed. there might be sideshows towards the 2 main targets of the year. however the final production quota must be reached. nothing's going to stand in my way. 1 Gold Medal and 4As. nothing gets in the way of that.

when the school song came to play today on orientation night i wondered what it might actually mean to the j1s out there enjoying themselves. i really don't know. but everytime i close my eyes when i sing the song, the image that burns in my mind is that of tziyang and zhihon holding the school flag, crying as they sang the school song after last year's finals. i know i didn't get to play last year but i see myself playing this year and i'll make sure i play this year. i'll erase that memory... we'll be crying as we sing the school song at the end of it but it'll be tears of joy. and hopefully tziyang and justin will be there too. decked out in their soaked jerseies, sweat dripping from their brows after the climatic battle. i'll pay every price in terms of pain and sacrifice to make that happen. hopefully everyone else will too. so that when we sing the school song again, its the image of victory that plays in our mind.

posted by Down the rabbit hole we go. at Friday, January 09, 2004

suddenly started humming the tune from this song in class.... arghz sad case man

Pretty woman, Won't you pardon me? Pretty woman,

I couldn't help but see, pretty woman, that you look lovely as can be.

Are you lonely just like me? Wow!

Pretty woman, stop awhile.

Pretty woman, talk awhile

Pretty woman, give your smile to me.

Pretty woman, yeah, yeah, yeah

Pretty woman, look my way

Pretty woman, say you'll stay with me
well the song needs no introduction.


posted by Down the rabbit hole we go. at Wednesday, January 07, 2004

weird analogy but i think there's a certain truth in it. life's like catching a high ball. you gotta be focused, relaxed and confident all at the same time.

posted by Down the rabbit hole we go. at Wednesday, January 07, 2004