Party at Club Seventh
Delayed Post ( Actually Written at 315am 31st December 2002 )

For someone to actually write something at this time and hour of the day, he must be on the verge of emotional and physical breakdown. Indeed that is just what I am facing.
The image of neon lights and hordes of people, the blaring party music at the club is firmly etched in the fabric of my mind. The scene is impossible to banish from my train of thought. I can still remember the touch of her skin, the smell of her hair... then now in the comfort of my room the question confronts me, "why?" Why did i go for the party? to frolick with people that I barely know? to drink and wreck my body? a path of self destruction ? Why did i dance with her? even if it was just for a short while...the girl in white...somehow the thought of it now scares me. I don't even know her, she doesn't know me. what if things had gotten out of hand? Lucky it didn't. Lust fills the club....guys go there looking for flesh... some girls go there looking for plain innocent fun but get drawn into this melting pot of sin.... I wonder if its possible to resist the rush, the urge, the temptation of clubbing in the future. I fear. Everyone is searching for love .... but can it be found here ? Is it possible ? the answer is clearly No. In 48 hours school is going to start... i hope it distracts me from anymore partying...I shall ask her out once more...in her company i feel comforted and at ease... in the company of that girl in white at the club all i feel is a rush of sinful urge. enough is enough.


posted by Down the rabbit hole we go. at Monday, December 30, 2002

Its been some time since I posted something so I guess I should write today....
well for starters....its been a week of parties and shopping......not exactly a very healthy lifestyle..... call me a freak or whatever but I really miss training....
its not just the runs the drills and the weights.... its the idea of belonging to something.....there were 2 parties last week.... one was a christmas party at leona's house
haha quite fun we turned her room into a club and actually danced there.....absolute vodka with blue chill cola just rocked..... finally a club that plays nice music haha....
we even gave it a name...Club TziMo...oh yeah this club offers mah jong too ! .... on christmas day there was a party at pink....man i was so reluctant to go... dragged myself there....... the place suxs....the music suxs...... people were alright tho...yingzhou is damn hot man...slick moves n a cool grove...drinks were great too served in jugs... n we found pure tequila....... kicks ass..............

all this partying is starting to get my head.....well i'm startin to wonder....is it a path to self destruction or just a way to release stress? and if its got my piorities all mixed up.... school's starting soon....and yeah i'm setting the rules for the new year....train hard study hard play hard ( but not too hard ! ) and get a steady gf if i can ( now this one is hard ) ... if i get a steady gf i will quit clubbing permenantly ! unless my gf's a party animal heh... yeah temporary ban on going to parties till next year end. main piority is winning the police cup ... we'll fuck ACJC...even if we dun win we wun let it be easy much blood will be spilt before they can retain their championship if they do retain it...............n of course my 2 S papers =) yep yep...leona's going to australia in feb....so maybe there'll be a farewell party hahaz at club tzimo!
party tomoro at club seventh so i betta go sleep...last party of the year.... after this...no more.... finallyz heh,.....


posted by Down the rabbit hole we go. at Sunday, December 29, 2002