ok..2004 is coming... need some resolutions.

1) i shall be disciplined in all endeavours.
2) i hand up my homework on time
3) i will pay attention in lectures
4) i will attend all lectures ( sigh no more skipping econs )
5) i will run thrice a week before school
6) i will sleep at 10pm on every weekday night
7) i will study harder
8) i will try not to be an asshole to certain people( but i think this one is real hard to change )
9) i will try not to swear ( impossible boo boo )
10) i will attempt to lose 8kg before the season starts
11) i will be positive
12) i will remember birthdays ( shit i'm going to be poor )
13) i will not be late for school.
14) i will persuade alvin tan to lend me the scrum cap he cheated the jap of.
that's for now... will try to add more soon

wish list
1) addidas superstar 100
2) glutamine powder 82
3) e dido CD 20
4) new slippers 49
5)my debt to weiming 30

shit i'm going to be damn broke...

posted by Down the rabbit hole we go. at Saturday, December 27, 2003

"Kids grow up. The magic of christmas is replaced by some of the more ragged emotions that surface in families, especially during the holidays. The weight of conflict often moves in where imagination once lifted everyone's spirits. If we're lucky, it is merely a rite of passage and we emerge from it. But it takes determination to come around again to the uncorrupted enthusiasim that was once so natural." -Patt Davis " Too Hip for the holidays " TIME Magazine

i hope they find that determination in time for next year.

anyway...bought the Love Actually soundtrack and i have to stop listening to it. seriously if you don't have someone that you really love it will just make you feel like the ultimate sucker. so for now i'll keep it in the CD rack where it belongs...till the day she comes. is she close or is she thousands of miles away i don't know. its all in the hand of fate.

I don't want to call my friends, they might wake me from this dream
And I can't leave this bed, risk forgetting all that's been
Oh I am what I am, I'll do what I want but I can't hide
I won't go, I won't sleep, I can't breathe until you're resting here with me
I won't leave, I can't hide, I cannot be, until you're resting here with me.
Dido - Here With Me

posted by Down the rabbit hole we go. at Thursday, December 25, 2003

ok so it didn't work. i took out the both the baccardi rum and vodka but i just didn't feel like mixing myself a drink. somehow there wasn't any mood to drink either. i feel so alone somehow... spending christmas eve alone in my own room sitting in front of the computer. -shrug- the results of detrimental parental influence...i'll make sure my children know what christmas is supposed to be like. they'll know what it means to get presents, they'll know what it means to give presents, they'll know what it means to share. they'll know this by experience...not by hearsay or a dream in their mind..the way i know it.

posted by Down the rabbit hole we go. at Wednesday, December 24, 2003

its x'mas eve and i'm stoning alone at home. would like to extend a sincere thank you to those who sent me cards, but apart from that and a few gifts i have to admit that personally for me..christmas is losing its spirit and meaning. instant noodles & vodka on christmas eve. cheers.



posted by Down the rabbit hole we go. at Wednesday, December 24, 2003

after returning from the tournament, i have only one word for the players of the other countries (except hongkong)... respect..especially for Japan, the champions of the 2003 ARFU U19 tournament. the experience of losing every game has scarred me but it has also opened my eyes to two key aspects in me which i see that i must improve. discipline as well as communication on the field. discipline and heart was the difference between Japan and Korea in the finals..i can find the passion within me...but the discipline has to serve alongside the passion in order to achieve great things.

posted by Down the rabbit hole we go. at Sunday, December 21, 2003