Carpe Diem - Seize The Day

Heard this latin phrase for the first time when Mr Evans brought it up during the first lit. lecture in the movie Dead Poet's Society. I realize now how the phrase actually means so much to me that I should live by it. Carpe Diem- Seize the day, seize the chance, seize the opportunity...indeed.... I want the chance...the chance to perform to my fullest on the field of battle...the chance to ask her out on valentine's day...the chance to make it an amazing and memorable outing on that day.

But chances don't come easy, so everyone tries to make chances.

Chance to ask her out on valentine's day.I tried to ask her out tomorrow using the excuse of needing to buy something to get the chance to ask her out on friday but well yeah..she said she didn't want to go out...*shrug* i don't know if i'm aggravating everything. I don;t want to rush things, I know that life's more than girls, there's still academics, rugby and friends. But well..take things slowly I hope i don't give the sign that I am rushing things....shall ask her before school on monday...i just wonder how it will go... i wonder i wonder...

Chance to don that emerald jersey and represent my school on the field of battle. I've been pushing very hard, trying to better my timing for the long runs, puting in greater effort into training. I want that position. I hope pray believe that I am good enough, please give me strength to prove myself worthy of the task.



posted by Down the rabbit hole we go. at Saturday, February 08, 2003

Dejected and lost

Why can't I appreciate the simpler things in life ? The sun rise fails to paint a smile on my face. I stand at the window unable to grasp the beginning of a new day, my world seems to be slowly and steadily falling apart around me. Well maybe it ain't all that bad but that's how i feel. My life seems to be going out of my own control. Its supposed to be chinese new year but I don't exactly feel in the new year mood. No i'm not swarmed with work not yet at least. First rugby's becoming a big frustration and secondly one of my classmates that i'm closer to wants to leave the class for science and thirdly ? thirdly? oh yeah i don't know what to do about someone that i am slowly fallin in love with...slowly but steadily...and there's a fourth thing too some of my friends are leaving for australia in 2 weeks. Sad...very sad. especially since i'm quite if not very close to one of them, Leona who was in the same p3 p4 p5 p6 class as me ! See...told you life's out of my control. Dread and lost hope. -sigh- life's a piss and i'm a pessimistic bastard. but wait... i'm also a determined bastard...so you know what that means? I'll get through all this bullshit...n yeah son of a bitch watch out...i'm hot on your trail....i can smell the blood...a natural hunter.... when i'm done with you i'll be where you're standing....
its late...shall go read Great Expectations by dickens... haha,... great expectations but will they ever be fulfilled ?

posted by Down the rabbit hole we go. at Sunday, February 02, 2003