Just Bring it

its 11+ and i just home from dinner after training... guess what the shortened school week has finally passed, much to my relief. Hmmmz the more eventful moments would be my humanities interview today, my visit back to chinese high/hcjc on thursday and training today and on wed. I must definitely admit that life is tough in Raffles Junior College, no its not just rugby and academics it goes beyond that. But oh well as e saying goes, "whatever that doesn't kill you only makes you stronger". When i went back to chinese high to get my CCA record for my humanities interview i realized that i sort of forgot how to speak Chinese manz...-sigh- at hcjc walked around but din see many people i know.. oh well i guess i really miss e chinese high friends that i have... back in Chinese high everyone was a friend... here in RJ i only stick to ruggers and my classmates, and a couple of longtime friends, quite sad in comparison right? -shrug- i dun really like e looks of many other ppl in sch that's what i can say, haha and i bet ppl hate me too...=P

well at my humanities interview i met some chinese high friends who were there for LEP scholarship interview, talked some kok with em. Manz they think my classmates all look damn intellectual. Those who were there like lynette carissa brandon and albert oh and of course e brilliant John Samuel who's frm 1B... anyway my interview was right after this indian girl frm bukit panjang government high frm alvin tan's class..-bleah- she's damn shuay went in after John Samuel e RI head prefect..lucky for me she acted as my buffer. Anywayz they asked me a whole lot of weird questions..oh well all interviews do ... e worst question was e X factor one...-bleah- i gave adaptability as my greatest greatest greatest X factor saying that i was in chinese high and den switched over to Raffles so must be good at adapting plus some crap bout rugby in raffles being traditionally very strong and prestigious so its hard to adapt n crap... crap crap crap..... freak manz hope i get e scholarship....

what can i say about training... Hmmmm there's only one word... TOUGH. yeah but that's e way it should be... to be e champion anyway i think i can finally admit to being part of something in e team.... feels that i can get alonger better with some ppl now.. oh well...training is good ( who am i bluffing manz? hahahhahahahahahhahahahaha)

hmmmz song of e moment manz...

Creep - radiohead
When you were here before,
couldn't look you in the eye.
You're just like an angel,
your skin makes me cry.
You float like a feather,
in a beautiful world
I wish I was special,
you're so fucking special.

But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo.
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here.

I don't care if it hurts,
I want to have control.
I want a perfect body,
I want a perfect soul.
I want you to notice,
when I'm not around.
You're so fucking special,
I wish I was special.

But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo.
What the hell am I doing here?.
I don't belong here

She's running out the door,
she's running,
she run, run, run, run, run.

Whatever makes you happy,
whatever you want.
You're so fucking special,
I wish I was special,

but I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo.
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here,
I don't belong here.


posted by Down the rabbit hole we go. at Friday, April 11, 2003

Time Passed

well well another day has gone by and I am glad to say that the time spent contemplating life yesterday was definitely worthwhile, today was a much better day. Maybe because i spent it meaningfully. Well there could have been another alternative, which was to go out with her but i'm happy with the choice that I made, shall say why later.Had to drag myself out of bed at 930 to get ready to go...really lacking sleep manz maybe that;s why I don't get as much returns as I should..shall change that from today. Anywayz met ivan potato n jd for breakfast at e kopitiam near e gym ... egg n bread...nutritious and full of protein. Guess who we met @ e gym? RJ canoeists... said hi to hc n brendan n moi angel ... haha Ivan damn famous even brendan knows who he is... Giant man jiu shi Giant man... ju shi wen ming....played bball for warm up before hitting the leg weights. I must say giant man is a great motivator during weights...really push me to my limits for every exercise...during this 10 day holiday the sessions when we did we really pushed to break out p.bs.. i managed to do for lats bench press n squats...what we were doing is INSANE lor.. I have never tried this before..its just nuts.. i never thought that i would be able to go so far... now i believe... TRUELY believe in the power of the mind. plus Ivan is very good on e technical side though e humble giant always claims he's just a beginner he really knows his stuff on body building. but after the break we'll haf to go back to our lives again.. he's in HC and i'm in RJ so very hard to find time to do weights together..guess i'll be training with e rj ruggers again not that bad either ... plus he has waterpolo season coming up so gotta focus... but we're trying to squeeze one day of e week to get together to do weights after his season..our biggest motivation during weights : come on! must thrash AC ! last 10 mins ! cannot give up now ! ... sure as hell hope we beat e living daylights out of em...they're goin down manz..

we tried playing bball after that cause jiade and potato went out before us to play. Kena cramp like siao There was this negro.. super zai manz...best player i have seen in real life. He totally kicked our ass. Well guess what he's an American on holiday here. He's 26 and attending grad sch (masters ) at Brown University ( how zai is that ! ) has a scholarship played bball for his state played on e same team as J.kidd did damn well for SATs.. what e hell manz SO ZAI RIgHT? Aye i think e Singapore system is fucking flawed..why can't we be like America? Flexibility allow their kids to haf fun playing sports and studying too. I know i have my humanities interview coming up and I must lie and say that Singpaore is e coolest place on earth ! ( yeah right ! ) but u want to know e truth ? I wouldn't want my kids to grow up in Singapore...period... uh uh no no... live e American dream... hahaha if i do well enuff lar....had lunch after that and sat @ macs to talk kok till 7... thrash talked potato haha damn funny...

WHY AM I HAPPY I MADE E CHOICE? well guess what I realize i shouldn't try to juggle a romance in JC.. no no... it just wouldn't work out... i want my friends my sport my academics... i wouldn't mind a gf... but yeah i can't cause i won't be able to handle things... nope... no way... I think i'm going to haf to sort things through with her before I get drawn into a messay situation. Life is looking good now..... shall study tomorrow and get ready for school =)..NITEZ

(Dream On - Aerosmith)

Everytime that I look in the mirror
All these lines on my face gettin' clearer
The past is gone
It went by like dust to dawn
Isn't that the way
Everybody's got their dues in life to pay

I know what nobody knows
Where it comes and where it goes
I know it's everybody's sin
You got to lose to know how to win

Half my life is in books' written pages
Live and learn from fools and from sages
You know it's true
All the things come back to you

Sing with me, sing for the years
Sing for the laughter, sing for the tears
Sing with me, if it's just for tofay
Mabye tomorrow the good Lord will take you away

Dream On, Dream On
Dream yourself a dream come true
Dream On, Dream On
Dream until your dream come true
Dream On, Dream On, Dream On...

Sing with me, sing for the years
Sing for the laughter and sing for the tears
Sing with me, if it's just for today
Mabye tomorrow the good Lord will take you away

part of this song can be found on Eminem's Singing the moment... hahaz yes dream on dream on .. dream until i live e American dream....that's why i so want to go to an Ivy League University.




posted by Down the rabbit hole we go. at Monday, April 07, 2003

Time Passed

well well another day has gone by and I am glad to say that the time spent contemplating life yesterday was definitely worthwhile, today was a much better day. Maybe because i spent it meaningfully. Well there could have been another alternative, which was to go out with her but i'm happy with the choice that I made, shall say why later.Had to drag myself out of bed at 930 to get ready to go...really lacking sleep manz maybe that;s why I don't get as much returns as I should..shall change that from today. Anywayz met ivan potato n jd for breakfast at e kopitiam near e gym ... egg n bread...nutritious and full of protein. Guess who we met @ e gym? RJ canoeists... said hi to hc n brendan n moi angel ... haha Ivan damn famous even brendan knows who he is... Giant man jiu shi Giant man... ju shi wen ming....played bball for warm up before hitting the leg weights. I must say giant man is a great motivator during weights...really push me to my limits for every exercise...during this 10 day holiday the sessions when we did we really pushed to break out p.bs.. i managed to do for lats bench press n squats...what we were doing is INSANE lor.. I have never tried this before..its just nuts.. i never thought that i would be able to go so far... now i believe... TRUELY believe in the power of the mind. plus Ivan is very good on e technical side though e humble giant always claims he's just a beginner he really knows his stuff on body building. but after the break we'll haf to go back to our lives again.. he's in HC and i'm in RJ so very hard to find time to do weights together..guess i'll be training with e rj ruggers again not that bad either ... plus he has waterpolo season coming up so gotta focus... but we're trying to squeeze one day of e week to get together to do weights after his season..our biggest motivation during weights : come on! must thrash AC ! last 10 mins ! cannot give up now ! ... sure as hell hope we beat e living daylights out of em...they're goin down manz..

we tried playing bball after that cause jiade and potato went out before us to play. Kena cramp like siao There was this negro.. super zai manz...best player i have seen in real life. He totally kicked our ass. Well guess what he's an American on holiday here. He's 26 and attending grad sch (masters ) at Brown University ( how zai is that ! ) has a scholarship played bball for his state played on e same team as J.kidd did damn well for SATs.. what e hell manz SO ZAI RIgHT? Aye i think e Singapore system is fucking flawed..why can't we be like America? Flexibility allow their kids to haf fun playing sports and studying too. I know i have my humanities interview coming up and I must lie and say that Singpaore is e coolest place on earth ! ( yeah right ! ) but u want to know e truth ? I wouldn't want my kids to grow up in Singapore...period... uh uh no no... live e American dream... hahaha if i do well enuff lar....had lunch after that and sat @ macs to talk kok till 7... thrash talked potato haha damn funny...

WHY AM I HAPPY I MADE E CHOICE? well guess what I realize i shouldn't try to juggle a romance in JC.. no no... it just wouldn't work out... i want my friends my sport my academics... i wouldn't mind a gf... but yeah i can't cause i won't be able to handle things... nope... no way... I think i'm going to haf to sort things through with her before I get drawn into a messay situation. Life is looking good now..... shall study tomorrow and get ready for school =)..NITEZ




posted by Down the rabbit hole we go. at Monday, April 07, 2003