this has got to be the best weekend for sports entertainment man. rugby world cup, WWE unforgiven, Euro 2004 qualifiers....now ain't that great ? watched France smash Fiji and the All Blacks triumph over the Italians yesterday. as for WWE..Goldberg was crowned new World Heavyweight Champion. the SPEAR and JACKHAMMER. MUH. inspirational man. with all that going on there just isn't any time left for studying. who cares even if its the promos?? its relag as usual... lit? huh what's that? never heard of it. what can be anymore boring than M4M ?

after reading my classmates blogs i must say i'm the most relag person apart from amanda who's sick..everyone's just so caught up with the S paper-Scholarship-overseas study nonsense. i remember what i told myself somewhere around this time last year. i came to rj to play rugby and get my 4As. so far so good, as long as i get to keep four subjects i have fulfilled my aim. haven't done any CIP or other enrichment stuff except out of pure interest too. going to class and listening to all the crap talk about scholarships from the teachers and classmates just makes me sick. one key reason why is because i never admired scholars back in chinese high. i never liked those 10A1 students from library or some other nonsense...i only admired sportsmen with good grades like quan ning and donald. can't think of any other sports person who got 10A1s. i despised those slackers and come to think of it now i might be living amongst them. since academic clubs and shit hardly count for a worthwhile cca. its like what once a week kind of shit? worse than chinese high library society if not equal. that just made me sick. -bleah- but at least i now know where all that weird feelings stem from. can't really do much about the foundations i'm built on can i? got to find a good role model to follow... i think i have just the person. though he seems so high up there that he's untouchable. come what may for lit. everything else...i cannot afford to screw up. thankfully there's no rugby on weekdays and no place to watch too since alvin will be studying and the pubs are all in town.

ps: tim i'm so sorry i didn't go for ur birthday dinner! you wouldn't want me there anyway i was in a damn foul mood plus nobody came to find me. maybe cause i was playing touch on the netball court to destress after the stupid econs paper. i'll make it up to you after promos. promise.

posted by Down the rabbit hole we go. at Saturday, October 11, 2003

when i look into those eyes i often wonder if what i see is porcelain or steel. promos deserve a big F U C K but anyway the rugby world cup kicked off today. Australia vs Argentina. wallabies won 22-8. -bleah- somehow i was rooting for argentina to cause an upset. but -shrug-, oh well a new zealand fan supports new zealand and any team that plays against australia. touching the ball for the first time in a long while and watchin the match has made me realize that i miss it so much. argh. must train hard after the promos. twice a day...

posted by Down the rabbit hole we go. at Friday, October 10, 2003

life is poetic irony. those who are trying to leave singapore and go overseas to study n relac there are those who are working the hardest. relac vs. pia. 2 sides of the coin. total opposites. but yet....life is as such...still have a lot of stuff unstudied but i just don't feel that afraid i wonder why. there just isn't that sense of urgency. -sigh- come what may. after promos its time to chiong, been lying low for too long because of the ankle. the aim: to be superman.

posted by Down the rabbit hole we go. at Tuesday, October 07, 2003

like icarus, he flew so high and like icarus he falls. broken wings in hand, plunging towards the abyss. he collides into the world he tries to escape. consumed by it. he reaches out looking to the land of freedom to grant his dreams yet there isn't a light at the end of the tunnel. the darkness is overpowering. he is disillusioned, just a boy looking for his ideals to be restored to him, for his dreams to live and not seem like some unachievable nightmare. he..is just looking for the light at the end of this tunnel of jc education.

posted by Down the rabbit hole we go. at Sunday, October 05, 2003